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All I Really Wanted

Without getting into the 800 reasons I did and did not want to become a nurse, I have to stop here and say that the steep climb to the top is delightful and deceitful, causing me to have daily bouts with my ambitious yet artfully deluded mind. The conversation I have with myself always includes the sickly desperate words “I can’t do this.” But the other day found myself spiraling, clinging to the shredded bits of whatever plan I had had in mind when starting this misguided tour of real life. And with an exaggerated sigh I proclaimed in exhaustion:

“All I wanted was to look cute in scrubs.”

Never did I imagine these would be the glory days…far from it. I both expect and slyly hope for torture. In fact, when the professors go light on us, I silently scoff and question their overall commitment to this thing called education.

But, more often than rare do they set those hoops ablaze. Most days it’s a tedious task just getting by, always reminding yourself that you’re one clumsy step away from making a sad faceprint on the exit door.

The first six weeks of nursing school were painfully exam-centric. All those obscure multiple choice questions will have you choked with double-guessing, over-analyzing panic. This might be intentional, because it’s a great way to forget that in the very near future, you’ll be face-to-face with a real, live patient. And those don’t have answer choices A through E scrawled across their bellies.

Remembering this fun fact always brings me to the aforementioned moment of blind panic. But it does something else, too. It makes me push through it. Because there’s no way around it, you have to know it. And, more importantly, you have to believe you know it.

All the back and forth, the doubt, is the change. The parts of you that couldn’t do it will be stripped away. A day will come when my “I can’t do this” will sound more like “you got this?” And I will just faintly acknowledge the obsolete question as I walk on by, looking very cute in my scrubs.


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“Mudblood and Proud!”

After watching the Deathly Hallows premiere live in New York on Monday, I am officially counting the hours (45!) ’til I can pack myself in amongst gaggles of loyal muggle fans for the beginning of the end. I have a feeling I will not be the only twenty-something elbowing children in the face for a better seat.

I’ve been a fan for more than ten years now, so it is safe to say that this is the culmination of a part of my being. As fantastical and imaginative a book can be, Harry Potter has meant more to me than any other piece of fiction I’ve ever encountered.It changed me, as it has so many others, for the better.

Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real? – Albus Dumbledore

I must confess myself disappointed, though. Not about the film, of course, for that I am more giddy than Hermione before taking her O.W.L.s. But why such a weak star turnout on the American side?

London Premiere

The World Premiere in London on November 11 boasted Brits Maggie Smith (Professor McGonagall), Robbie Coltrane (Hagrid), Mark Williams (Mr. Arthur Weasley), Julie Walters (Mrs. Molly Weasley), Katie Leung (Cho Chang), Evanna Lynch (Luna Lovegood), Matthew Lewis (Neville Longbottom), James and Oliver Phelps (Fred and George Weasley), and Bonnie Wright (Ginny Weasley). Not to mention the lovely Helena Bonham Carter (Bellatrix Lestrange), the spine-tingling Alan Rickman (Professor Snape), and, a personal hero of mine, J.K. Rowling herself.

It is as I have suspected all along: I should have been born British.

The New York Red Carpet

The New York Premiere was streamed live at eonline.com and consisted largely of three adult men I had never seen before rambling on about how phenomenal the Harry Potter books, films, actors, directors, theme park, merchandise, gossip, and fans all are. Principle characters Harry, Ron, and Hermione were all in attendance. As well as the rather dashing Tom Felton (Draco Malfoy). Ralph Fiennes was most impressive; always surprising Potter fans, who know him only as Voldy, with his dashing stature. I anxiously awaited more familiar faces from the halls of Hogwarts. But, alas, the Atlantic proved too gaping for broomsticks, thestrals, and flying motorbikes to cross.

There seemed to be a  heavy focus on the American stars moseying down the red carpet. I am rather indifferent toward celebrity culture unless it pertains to something interesting. Sarah Jessica Parker, Keri Russell, and Melissa Joan Heart were not doing it for me. I would rather they interviewed the fans, who waited hours in the cold to be part of the impending magic as I would have.

I have to note that Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, and Emma Watson seem to be the most likable movie stars on planet Earth. All three are kind, respectful, humble, and rather quick-witted. I have admired Daniel on a personal level ever since he began working with the Trevor Project in earlier this year. He seems, as producer David Heyman said of him when he was only nine, to have an old soul. It has been impored so often before me, but I don’t think the films would have been half as good if anyone but those three took the leads.


Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows was my favorite of the seven volumes; and it looks like they’ve made a more strict adaptation compared to previous films (Goblet of Fire being the worst). The darkness, death and doom are all anyone could allude to on the red carpet. I, for one, am ready. With Harry until the end!!!


Was listening to the soundtrack and have mapped out the gist of the film using the track titles. It looks like Part One will conclude with Dobby’s funeral. Talk about departing on a sad note! To listen to the score for yourself, follow this link.


Now for some pictures that made my wand shoot sparks!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

Seven Harry Potters

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1

MAGIC is MIGHT (I spy Umbridge!)

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